That’s what i’ve heard before.. do what u love and love what u do. but what will u do when u have to do the dos u don’t like at all? will u still love it?

i’m in the point where i have no choice but walk. pretty rough and tough also kinda feel sucks. also! i’m in a point where someday if things keep going like this, i ensure it will be someday, i’m gonna quit.

oftenly i ask God. is this what You really want in my life? because i don’t find such things that inspire and make me passionate about what i did before. but if so, just give me such a HEART to do these then..

it feels like i become a stranger for myself. hating everything when i mess things up. and the only thing that i wanna do is to run and never comeback though it makes me a quitter. well somehow i also feel like a loser because i lost in every war. spiritual war from my mind and my feelings.

i have no place to tell yet no place to yell. though i know God never let me be alone.

so God, what are You gonna do next? :)